Falling In Love is something that I WAS afraid of.
My heart was closed and I'd never let anyone climb my wall.
Everything changed when I met him,
My ordinary life turned extraordinary.
Without knowing the very reason why I fell for him,
My perception to Love started to change.
He made me happy every time,
A simple text message would brighten up my day.
It's like my lungs would resist oxygen to enter when I see him.
Then I realized that Falling in love isn't something to be afraid of,
Instead it's worth a TRY
Months passed and he started to change..
Slowly changing to a different kind of person.
Like a stranger. His acts weren't the same anymore or
he's just showing off the real him.
Though he changed, I accepted him
I know deep within myself that it was wrong to
say "yes" just because I don't want him out of my life.
That time, I thought everything will be okay.
But things became worst.
All my life, I've been dreaming..hoping..wishing..
That I could also experience what others had experienced
in their First Love..But he's too selfish to grant my wish.
I didn't ask anything in return.
I can love him without him loving me back.
But, he can't give me a little appreciation.
Harsh words..
Words I was pretending not to hear.
I'm a cancerian girl, and painful words
would easily hurt me.
But because of him, I learned how to adjust.
I was taken for granted
and every time he's hurting me,
I still care about the words I'm responding.
I don't want to hurt him too..
not even a little.
I just hope that pain, for the same reason
won't hurt anymore.
Just like a joke that you can't laugh anymore
after hearing it several times.
After 2 months of being together,
He broke up with me.
Without any good reason.
( then, I discovered something that I can't tell here
)
I was hoping that My Love for him will fade, but it won't.
Instead, anger left and love stayed.
I just can't afford to hate someone,most especially him.
After few months, we were together again.
With his precious promises ..It sounded so lovely.
I was then hoping that he'll treat me better that time.
That it was only in the start.
Any person cannot imagine how he makes me happy.
I admire him. His actions, the way he speaks,
the way he laughs. Watching him smile, then
I can forget all the pain.
All I can do was wait for the time that he will remember me.
I needed him so badly.
Each day I was hurting. So i asked him a favor.
And that favor was to message me even once in a day.
But he can't do it.Instead, I felt that I was annoying him.
Months have passed and I'm getting used to what he is.
I accepted them all..But I can't stop hoping...
Hoping that I will be loved in return.
Being with him, is everything to me.
I came to the point wherein I'm starting to hate him
And I don't want it to happen.
So, I broke up with him, and guess what?
He didn't try to stop me..
I wanted to do it personally but he won't
So i called him, his voice were raising at me.
Giving me more reason to end our relationship.
Then, I did.
Weeks passed and he's back again chasing me
Saying he missed me and all his la-la-las
Then we agreed on conditions
We had an open relationship,
no obligations.
But AFTER FEW DAYS, he ended it.
He was the one who ended it.
All I wanted was to be with him,
Actually I never expected him to change.
A month passed and he's back AGAIN chasing me
I couldn't decide, ENOUGH!
But then something happened
that made all the truths reveal
All of the "us" was never true
I guess the only truth he told me was
the infos seen on his bio data (tsk)
I don't care anymore.. the messages i read was
all in the past..even though kami pa but still it's i the PAST
I can't change even a single letter with it.
But what hurts me most is that
Instead of hearing a SORRY, i only got harsh words.
Well I guess It's okay for it will remind me...
for the rest of my life of how cruel he is.
I still forgive him, without him making any apology
)))) clap2x
Never stay when you're not wanted anymore.
That's what people say.
THE END NAJUD NI!
bisaya na kay kapoy! kuan
Wala ko nag expect nga ing-ani ko mahigugma haha!
BULOk ko nuh? but i guess that's just how it is..
daghan ayo kog na learn and now..
STRONG NAKO! WA NA NAG STRUGGLE
lol!
