I don’t even know where to start here.
Let’s see what you have. You say you have paranoia? Nope. Paranoia is a severe delusion already. You are now having what we psychiatrists call “Separation Anxiety”. You can see this in babies when they are separated by their mothers. They usually cry very loud. 5 year olds tend to be confused and also cry very loud so their mothers can hear them.
The good news is your separation anxiety is not yet a disorder. The bad news is if you continue to worry, it will become a disorder. So watch your mental state because you will be admitted into a mental institution soon if you continue that.
Another thing I want to point out is you’re having “Morbid Jealousy”. A type of delusional jealousy where you suspiciously think your partner is cheating without any source of basis.
Again, if you continue this kind of worrying, you’ll end up in a mental hospital with two personality disorders now. One being separation anxiety disorder and two is delusional personality disorder most specifically, morbid type.
Now for your boyfriend, he is displaying “Guilt Trip” manipulation by attempting suicide when you try to leave him. This is a form of tactic where he tries to control you by striking your weakest point, and that’s your guilt. He does this simply because this is the only way where he can show power towards you even when he’s away.
His manipulation tactic tells us that he is displaying selfishness towards you so the one you call “attention seeker” is not you my dear, it’s your boyfriend. He’s the attention seeker. He seeks attention because he is offshore and lonely.
Selfishness is one of the reactions of the brain when it’s in love so could say this guy loves you. I wish I could tell you the anatomy but it’ll probably bore you so let’s skip that part.
Why did I tell you this?
One, because both of you have to end this relationship before it becomes even more worse. Don’t you know the dangers you into my dear? Let me sum it up to you.
If you would observe, both of you display “immaturity” in both sides of the relationship, you are displaying separation anxiety and your boyfriend is selfish. Now use your head right now and see what will happen in the future if, say, something goes wrong like he cheated on you.
You might tell me, “But he promised to love me only”? You know what I see in that? Total crap! Because according to research, when people say something, 60% of that is a lie. I always follow Murphy’s Law. You know what it states there?
Law #1: What could go wrong will go wrong.
Law #2: If there is a possibility of several things going wrong, the one that will cause the most damage will be the one to
go wrong. (i.e. cheating)
Law #3: If anything just cannot go wrong, it will anyway.
Surprisingly, these laws always work. Strange really. I’ve been using them for a very long time and it always works.
That means whatever you’re thinking bad that will happen to your relationship, is most probably going to happen. So if you’re thinking that he’s going to cheat, he’s really going to cheat. Not now but in the future.
If you can’t provide yourself an answer when I ask you “what will you do if he cheated on you” then end your relationship now before it hurts you both.
